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Oh, yes. My wife and adult son still mock me for the scene in which I sat in my backyard, feet in a wading pool, computer on my lap, weeping in the afternoon sun as I wrote the final scene of my novel. It was undoubtedly a combo cry, encompassing the emotional release of finishing something that had taken me far too long to complete, together with the inevitable empathizing a writer feels with their characters, and in particular the fact that my central character resembles — a little, unavoidably — 9-year-old me. I endure the mockery good-naturedly. Crying while writing feels like proof that I'm doing something meaningful and true if it can stir up that kind of emotion in me.

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That sounds wonderful to me. I'm sure your wife and son were touched by it even while they were teasing you.

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Nov 3, 2022Liked by Hattie Crisell

This has totally happened to me while writing! But I'm also an actor, so I thought it was me being my over-invested, slightly-insane actor self. It's nice to know that this is a writer thing, too, and that perhaps it means something in the piece might be working!

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I really think it does.

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Nov 3, 2022Liked by Hattie Crisell

Thanks for this. I just realised that I’m struggling with my current project because I’m not being honest enough. It’s not making me feel uncomfortable or sad, so it’s quite boring. Also, I frequently laugh at my own jokes when I’m writing.

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Well it sounds like the jokes are on the right track anyway – and this could be a crucial realisation. It's all part of the process.

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Or I just have an incredibly weird sense of humour.

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Nov 3, 2022Liked by Hattie Crisell

This is such good timing. I was crying yesterday whilst writing my novel. I also started to feel down, because my character is down (I hope that's why...). In last night's Birkbeck class I was telling someone I felt inexplicably agitated - but this is a reminder it is all to do with my writing and, I too, am highly sensitive. It is making it quite hard to go back to it today though I must say, as I can't leave the mood at my desk or on the page - but I am finding this post encouraging and perfectly timed! x

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Ugh I'm sorry it's been making you feel down. I hope it's cathartic in some way. Maybe if it's a long stretch of the novel that makes you feel very down, then that also might be a sign that it needs more moments of hope or lightness? Or maybe not! Really glad the post was encouraging anyway x

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Nov 6, 2022Liked by Hattie Crisell

Thanks Hattie x I do also find the creative process as a whole an emotional experience, so could be that as well, together with the overarching theme of the book being grief, no doubt. In today's substack post I outline my HARDCORE November writing goals and link to this piece of yours :) Sending writing courage for the week ahead!

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Looking forward to reading that. Writing courage to you too!

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Humm I commented on another thread but it seems to have disappeared 👻

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It hasn't disappeared, don't worry! I'm just about to reply :)

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